Charisma

Ei's comment on the making of "the RIDGE" really impressed me. She said that we could not know that he made effort and did practice if we did not watch the making. And like him, those who are called charisma don't show these effort, failure or fear and so on. So that people regard him as a charisma and  they attract us. Yeah, it's true. Charisma must make a lot of effort which we can't imagine, but we never see that they boast or show their exertion. 

On the contrary,  I tend to show off both my effort and especially appeal my failure to other members  of my club. Although I try not to make complaints, I apt to give notice that I can't do well.  I thought  being expected can be strong pressure, so I wanted to avoid. 

There is a meaning that avoiding cutting my own throat, but moderate expectation can be motivation. Avoiding pressure or expectations can be the cause to neglect making effort. I need not to be a super charismatic leader, but at the same time, I don't want to flee. In order to be trusted as a leader, I have to quick saying something negative and  showing weak attitude...